Update.

Why not fill everyone in on life?
Life is going pretty well. I'm busy,
as usual, but I love what I'm doing.
I'm excited. There are so many
opportunities opening up and it's
amazing. :D

I hope things go well for the show.
So far the show is going well. It's
hilarious. :D People should come
and experience the wonderful
world of William (Shakespeare).
I'm excited! Only a few more weeks
until opening.

I've come to realize that life never
gives you a definite answer to anything.
You are left out on the outskirts of
what might be the answer but you just
have to leap and believe what you are
doing is right for you at that moment.
Life is all chance. It's insanity. It's
beautiful. I'm ready to jump in and
see where it takes me next.

I'm feeling so inspired right now that
I don't know what to do with myself.
I am not sure what has brought this
upon me. God. I want to go do something.

Quote of the moment:

"Fall in love or fall in hate.
Get inspired or be depressed.
Ace a test or flunk a class.
Make babies or make art.
Speak the truth or lie and cheat.
Dance on tables or sit in the corner.
Life is divine chaos. Embrace it.
Forgive yourself. Breathe.
And enjoy the ride..."
--Solbeam

This quote is amazing. Love it.
Apply it to your life in some way.
Or just think about it. You never
know where that thought might
lead you...

End.

Monologue...

While writing this, I used many different instances, some of
mine and some of my friends', for inspiration. I'm sure more
will come in time. Here it goes.

Nick, I'm scared. Don't you see that's why I've pushed you
away? It's not because you are gay. I'm petrified of this
world, people and even myself. For the past two years I've
kept quiet about everything, never showing how sad, scared,
and upset I was. Everyone I've loved has died or left me; I've
been left alone and I don't know how to care anymore. I'm
scared I will hurt you or someone else. I think I might ruin
your life and mine. I wonder what will happen if I ruin
everything we have. I hate myself for it. I've forgotten how
to go into the world and see it with open eyes. Everything's
black and evil to me. I don't see NYC as a city of uniqueness,
but a pit of lies, disease, and poverty. Everywhere I look I see
billboards with skinny, happy models that could never
understand what it's like watching two of your best friends
waste away from AIDS, a mother who chose drugs over you,
and an ex-lover-turned psycho. Everyone's dying around us.
That's the world I see when I look outiside. I no longer see it
with artist's eyes. That's why I'm terrified. I'm scared of what
I've become. Nick, I love you.

Tell me what you think if you would like..and be brutally honest.

Thanks!
End.
♥

Every time we touch...

So, I've had a pretty interesting break.
I've met new people (Bobby), done
things I told myself I'd never do (became
a gamer with Guitar Hero, sang Karaoke),
and decided to stay true to myself, not to
settle or hold back, and always stay
close to my friends and family. These are
the infamous New Year's resolutions that
I wanna stick with. :D

I'm really excited to see what this year has
in store for me. I have a feeling the play
is going to rock. :D (Opens Valentine's Day
so bring your date or love. :D) I hope this
year proves to be an amazing one. If you
are reading this, try to make it a great one.
If you have a great one, I will too. It's how
the world works? maybe?

Tomorrow marks the first day of rehearsals
after a glorious Christmas Break. Stay classy,
Muntucky. Stay classy. :D

♥
End.