Cheesecake does that to people

So, me and the "gang" went to see I Am Legend last night
and it's slightly depressing. It reminded me of Human
Faustus just because it focuses on viral vectors and the
possibility to cure disease with a potentially dangerous
virus...however, as always, it backfires. People go crazy.
There is blood, death, and insanity. I would recommend
it if you are into the scientific kind of movies or suspense-
thrillers. Otherwise, steer clear of it. You'll only cry.
But if you decide to go, you are guaranteed to have fun
with the friends.

And I'm pretty excited right now. I just have a feeling that
things are going to work out this year. I don't know how I
can feel at ease...maybe it's my friends, or the weather,
or even music, but there is an easiness within me. I like it.
I really like where things are going. :D

I'm off to yet another great day. Just wanted everyone
to know that life is going very well at the present.

End.

La di da...

I'm in love. As usual. This time I love the soulful
Jack Johnson. *sigh* After a fun-filled, fast-paced
day-o-shopping with the girls, I am relaxing in
the pjs with a cup of coffee..listening to my
new-found lover. I'm really happy with life right
now...it could always be better, as it could be worse.
So I think I'll stay content with the easiness of this
moment.

Oh thank God for music and shopping. :D

End.

Another year older...

and this year's birthday rocked.
I had loads of fun with my friends.
There were only a few bumps in
the road...such as drama being
started...but you know, as bad as
it hurts, I have to get over it at
some point. So, my birthday took
the place of the idiotic drama. :D
Well, we filled the insane void with
some amazing Jonathan Larson
music: aka RENT and Tick Tick Boom.
Oh, and chinese and fazoli's.
And 19 is no different than 18. It's
just another birthday to look forward
to and once it arrives, realize that life
is full of dull birthdays and you are
lucky to have five fun ones after the
age of 14. :D I'm a bit jaded I guess.
Atleast there are four more amazing
birthdays to go. :D

♥
End.

Love Pt. Duex

In response to the blog I posted earlier today, M. Night
Shyamalan and Tim Burton might be two of my
favorite directors. Watching both of the geniuses work
today reminded me just how amazing their movies are.
I hope my generation produces equally talented directors.

Just so the world knows.

End.

Love.

Is it bad that I'm in a wierd situation
yet again with my grandparents? My
mom had to get Pop a birthday gift,
so now Gma and Pop are going to come
over on my birthday to deliver one for
me and maybe Mom. Gosh. I don't want
to deal with this. Ek.

Oh well.
I love being lazy once in a while....
like once every six months. So, I'm
camping out at home all day, watching
great movies, and relaxing. :D I live for
having movie days/nights. I'm listening
Amos Lee, the world is beautiful, and my
mom and I are going to be alone at
la casa until 4:00. That means tons of tea,
sweat pants, slippers, fleece blankies, and
a movie marathon. :D

♥ I love movies! ♥

It's gonna be a great day.

Maybe I can get some friends together at
someone's house and continue the
world's longest movie marathon.

I have a feeling i'll forget my petty little
problems in life today. I love when that
happens.

♥ End. ♥

Chapstick, Chapped Lips and Things Like Chemistry

"And you promised me (that you believe)
in time I will defeat this
'Cause somewhere in me, there is strength"

Wow. This is potent stuff. Someone believes that
I can actually make it through things....that
little ol' me has some spark of strength deep down.
This is comforting. If God believes that, then who
am I to doubt? You know? Maybe I can make it
through anything. (With help though)

This song doesn't really apply to me right now but
as of a few months ago this song could narrate my
life. I realized that I am a person, with countless
weaknesses, and a few strengths. I can't stand on
my own. No one can.

And the moon is staring at me. I think I shall move
Mr. Moon to face another wall. O.o
(Corrina and I went halfsies on an auction last night
and I took the moon while she took the sun from
Three Cuckholds. :D)

And tonight was glorious. I love to just hang out with
the friends in a relaxed setting. Christy and the SMs
are amazing. Plus, I enjoy holiday parties. I'm really
happy to be where I am in my life. I wouldn't
change it for the world.

Oh, Sam is back from boot camp! <3 I've missed him
so much. A girl can only go a short time without her
original SM bud by her side before life kicks her in
the face. He came over today and I was speechless,
which is truly odd. He's amazing. I hope that life
treats him well. Sam, keep being good Sammy Sam. :D

"Chapstick, Chapped Lips And Things..." ha! I soooo
remember this song from like sophomore year. :D

Corrina totally informed me that there shall be a Theatre
Dept. Prom this year. Guess who got her beautiful
non-prom-dress today? Oh yesh, your favorite Minda.
Now for a date. hmph. Oh well, things will work out.
I'm optimistic.

Now for the perfect end to a perfect day: a good long
cuddling session with my new penguin blankie and a
good long slumber.

End.

Ignorance

This poem got me to thinking this morning....

Philip Larkin - Ignorance

Strange to know nothing, never to be sure
Of what is true or right or real,
But forced to qualify or so I feel,
Or Well, it does seem so:
Someone must know.

Strange to be ignorant of the way things work:
Their skill at finding what they need,
Their sense of shape, and punctual spread of seed,
And willingness to change;
Yes, it is strange,

Even to wear such knowledge - for our flesh
Surrounds us with its own decisions -
And yet spend all our life on imprecisions,
That when we start to die
Have no idea why.

Everyone is ignorant in some way. Life is just
figuring out one thing at a time. We're all on
the same page, really.

Kinda good to know.

:D

End.

One of the brightest starts.

It has snowed again. The sky has not merely spitted a few flakes here
and there, however. The sky opened up it's snow vault and threw up
on Muncie. So far, we've receieved 4 inches. There's more to come.
Snow. I know what I'm doing tonight. :D

SNOWANGELS!

or snowmen. If the snow packs well.

End.

Stop and sit in the snow.

As the world knows, I despise the snow; however, Keaton made me think today.
While walking to my English class, I realized that no matter how I look at the world,
the natural wonders are truly beautiful. I looked around and gained a new appreciation
for the snow. Granted, I still don't love it, I appreciate it for being beautiful. I guess you
could say I stopped and looked at the snow. I've been in a great mood ever since.

So maybe people should walk slower in life...check out the snow, man!

Just making ya think. Or, rather, I'm thinking.

END.

The Last Tuesday

Of class. Wow. I've come so far in the past few weeks.
I never realized just how fast time does fly in college.
I guess it's because we are all young.
I like it.
Kinda.

I'm in an exceptionally good mood. I'm relaxing to my
music, dressed warm, and ready to tackle the last
few days of class.

English went well yesterday. I learned about Japanese
theatre in Aesthetics, and I really am intrigued by it. My
secret santa (s.s.) had a huge cup of coffee delivered to
me during Aesthetics. Rehearsals start tonight. Everything is
fresh again. Life is good. I'm not tampering with it.

Thank God for the strength to finish the worst paper
in the history of man. I finally finished my family
biography paper last night. I've been wrestling with
some of the issues that exist in my family now. I can't
find the answers alone. I wish I could travel back in
time and save my parents all the heartache they
experienced. But, alas, I cannot. Their issues created
their personalities. I'm just realizing that I never want
to inflict pain on anyone I love. Intentionally, obviously.

That's why God is there: for our stupid moments.
:D

I'm off to get ready for Stage Management.

End.

And here we go again...another week.

So, I have to give an oral presentation on Stage Management
today in English. :( I don't know how I'm feeling about this.
I love SM-ing but people in this class are not going to
understand it. There is so much that I've been through during
the past five years that I can't begin to explain the adrenaline
rush I get from running a show, fixing a problem during a
performance, and just being in the moment. Oh well. I'm going
to make the most of it. I'll have fun looking like an idiot.
It's what I do best.

Next week is the annual theatre department Holiday Party. :D
I'm pretty excited. Maybe it's because I'm naive, or maybe
because I just love the end of the first semester, but I'm truly
excited. I even hate the Christmas season but I'm looking forward
to a Christmas Party. ((I sound like an old person, getting excited
over a holiday party.)) Maybe I'll get in the holiday spirit .

I'm slightly sad that grandma isn't talking to me. She is blaming
it all on me, saying that she never told anyone that she was done
with me....however, I heard her say it herself. I just wish I could
tell her that I'm not a bad person, I didn't do a thing to her, heck,
I even helped her and Pop as much as I could....but yet I'm the one
that is shot down (along with my mom, dad, and brother). As
evil as it sounds, I don't miss her. Not yet. I've went longer without
speaking to her. I just want to know that she's happy without us.
The logic doesn't make sense but it's what I'm thinking.

It'll all work itself out. Life has a way of doing that.

End.

When I Look to the Sky

Here's a short excerpt from one of my
favorite songs by Train. The song seems
to uplift my spirits when all else seems to
fail. It reminds me that I'm never alone and
if I keep believing, I can do anything. Enjoy!

Cause when I look to the sky
something tells me you’re here with me
And you make everything alright
When I feel like I’m lost
something tells me you’re here with me
And I can always find my way

Whether I'm up or down or in or out
or just plain overhead
Instead it just feels like it is impossible to fly
But with you I can spread my wings
to see me over everything
that life may send me when I am hoping it won’t pass me by

When I feel like there is no one
that will ever know me
there you are to show me

So, this is where it begins.

I finally gave into the craze and decided to start blogging
my life adventures (or lack thereof.)

I have quite a bit on my mind, as usual. I don't know how
it's possible to cram so much into a mind, but it's there...
and it doesn't want to leave me alone. This "stuff" seems
to evade my everyday life; from listening to music to talking
to someone about the moon, my mind reminds me that
there is something else creeping to my memory...right now
it's all nostalgic; well kinda. I'm reminiscing about the simple
life just a year ago. Granted life wasn't that easy a year ago,
I surely didn't think so much. College has challenged me
in infinite ways just by introducing me to astounding people.
The new ideas, conversations, and discussions I have taken
part in have really changed who I am, which isn't bad. I
often find myself wondering how I have grown in the past
year, how I am affecting other people's lives, and what
the meaning of it is. Why did God place me where I am today?
There's a reason. Maybe I'm not meant to know, but I
can still ponder, right? Oh well. I'm young. I'll figure it out
one day.

Starting Tuesday, my life will be complete once again. I am
beginning Love's Labour's Lost. :D I love Shakespeare, theatre,
interacting with people, and stage managing so all shall be
amazing. The week after that I'll be free from classes,
another year older, and ready for Christmas again. Life is
flying past me at full speed. I hope I can keep up.

I guess I'll have to see what happens next semester.
End.